A quick overveiw.

          "What is she eating?" "Is she active?" "This is a problem that should be adressed now rather than in her future." I could remember sitting in my doctors office at the young age of 8, listening to my doctor talk to my Mom about me, and my weight like I wasn't even in the room. All my negitive feelings about my body and the way I look began there. As I look back now, she was obviously just doing her job. However, her just doing her job made me feel really bad about myself. It is sad to think 11 years ago, when I was still a child, I was faced with the harsh realization that I was "fat" and I needed to change.  I could rememeber really not understanding what to do, or even understanding how I was different. I knew I didn't look like my two petite sisters, and that I no longer fit into the cute pajamas and back-to-school clothes at Kids-R-Us. I remember feeling like I wanted to be like them, but I didn't know how to be.
         Fast track a few years to my first few months in middle school and the torture I had to endure everyday by my peers and classmates, I definatly knew I was different. Unlike my 8 year old self, I began to understand what I could do to change it. For as long as I could rememeber from this point on I was always on a "diet."
         Diets don't work. That is something I am positive of now. Through-out the years, I have been on atleast a hundred "diets," South Beach, Atkins, Weight-Watchers On-Line, E-Diets, diet pills, seeing nutrishonists, a personal diet-consultant, starving myself ect... Nothing worked! I just gained and gained. I felt like something was wrong. I had gotten my sugar levels tested when I was 13 and again at 18. Both came back high. I am now on Medication for that. I also was discovered at 18 to have a vitamin D deficany, which my  endocrinologist says does have an effect on my metabolism. With both of my medical issuses squared away, I finally felt like this was my chance to lose the weight that I had accumulated over the past 11 years.
         I have been on my life-style change since Febuary. Along with constant activity, eating 1600 calories a day, and keeping a food journal daily I have lost about 45 pounds! I cannot express how proud I am of myself. For the first time EVER I have been able to do this on my own. When I started dropping the weight my first thoughts were, "I have to help other people just like me." This is why I am doing this blog. I want to help every single person who has struggled with there weight and feels trapped in a body that isn't theirs. You are going to read about my bad times, horrible times, great times and struggles. Yes I have lost 45 pounds, and wow has it been difficult, and wow do I have much more to lose! I will update this blog frequently with how my days go, how my weekly weigh-ins I have set up for myself go, and tips on anything I can think of to share. I can't wait to get started!