Weigh in # 6

        With my huge weight loss for last week, I wasn't expecting to lose much at all.  Two days ago I said to my mom,  I think I gained weight this week. For some reason I just knew. I didn't feel right. My eating was perfect this week, and with my pulled muscle I did the best I could with my work outs, I went to the gym 4 times. However, I had a very stressful week and I haven't been sleeping well at all.  Positive state of mind and sleep are just as important when trying to lose weight as anything else. I gained a half pound. This isn't a big deal. It isn't a set back at all, it's just unfortunate. On top of that, I woke up with a horrible cold this morning. So my body is just kind of out of wack. I'm not upset, things happen, I just need to relax and get back to my normal sleep pattern. Next week will be much, much better. My goal is 2 pounds.

Set back # 12001

Since the new Planet Fitness opened near where I live, it has been so much easier to get to the gym. It's so much closer then the one I used to go too. Therefore, I have been going A LOT. My body is sore 24/7 but I know it's worth it. HOWEVER- I fucked up. A couple times I went I didn't strech before or after my workout. I am paying the price now. I pulled my calf muscle 2 days ago. It's so painful. It's hard to even walk right. I did some research and basically every site is saying to NOT workout. I cannot afford not to workout. I am on this positive, consistant losing streak. Of course this would happen now! I feel like everytime everything starts going good, something bad ALWAYS comes up. This is my trend through-out this journey, set back after set back.

All I know is, at this point, I know a lot of people would give up. It is so hard to stay positive when trying to lose weight. So many things can get in the way. I know I just have to keep going and try my hardest under each circumstance. I have been pushed to the edge so many times with this, I have not given up once. I think it's safe to say I am in this untill the end.

The game plan is as follows. I haven't worked out since this happened 2 days ago. I have been putting icey hot patches on my muscle through-out the day, and it's much easier to walk now. I am going to go to the gym as planned this week just do VERY light cardio and work my upper-body. Im going to continue eating my best. That way, I know if I don't reach my weekly goal for Thursday, I did everything I could and tryed my hardest. If I don't lose weight, I will the next week. Just have to keep going.

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Weigh in #5

Just a quick weigh in update- Since the start of my second year, Feb/18th-
 I have lost 10.3 pounds in total!!!!

I lost 4.2 pounds this week! I couldn't be more proud. I am so sore from the gym, I can barley move and this loss made that all okay. I'm right back on track with my over-all loss, since my 2 pound gain last week. It's amazing when you see your hard work pay off in such a big way! My goal for next week is a pound and a half.

A personal milestone is coming up for me. The smallest weight I have ever been is only 3 pounds away! Crazy... sometimes I feel like I am in a dream. It really is just a great feeling.
So excited to keep moving forward.

At last- spring!

Spring is officailly here. I cannot put into words how happy I am, so, I won't even try!

I had a wonderful weekend. I went on a sweet shopping spree at an outlet mall Friday. The weather was out of this world nice. So warm, I even broke out the flip flops! Saturday, I went to an aquarium, it was the coolest place I think I have ever been. So over all weekend wise, amazing! I did great with my food, and got in a lot of walking. Picture perfect to say the least :)

With all this warm weather and the arrival of spring, I remembered about all my summer clothes packed away in draws that I had forgotten about. I tried on everything today, and basically, I will be spending a lot of money on everything new for summer. NOTHING fits. Bathing suits are huge, shirts look like dresses, my sun dresses look like big blankets, and my pants just simply fall off. That is probably one of the best feelings I have had so far on this journey. Seeing all my hard work over winter pay off!

The new planet fitness opened too! I'm pretty sure it opened sometime last week, but I was so busy I didn't even find out till about 4:15 today, I was there working out by 4:30! I love it. It's all so new and exciting. It's only 10 minutes from my house. That is going to make going to the gym so much less time consuming.

With spring and the new gym here, I didn't think I could feel more motivated than I was after my last weigh in, but I am. Cannot wait to see my results on Thursday!

Here is my journal from today-

Breakfast: Quaker oatmeal squares cereal: 220
                Banana: 100
                Coffee: 50
                                                            Total: 370

Lunch: Turkey & Cheese on whole wheat: 160
           Salad w/ crasins & B.V: 190
                                                            Total: 350

Snack: Apple: 80

Dinner: 4oz Salmon: 140
            1 cup whole grain rice: 240
            Aspragus: 25
                                                            Total: 405

Dessert: Sugar free ice pop: 25

Total: 1230
Water: 80 oz

I really didn't eat enough today! When you eat healthy, it is so hard to eat the right amount of calories. It is so much food! Only because everything is so low calorie. That's why it is so important to journal, so you see exactly what you eat. Not eating enough can have the same effect as eating too much. You will gain weight.
                              

Weigh in #4

So, I knew I wasn't going to lose much at all this week. I just started working out again like 3 days ago, and it's that time of the month. That means for me, water weight gain, and boy was I right. I hopped on the scale this morning to see a 2 pound gain. This is very rare, and made me very sad. This has only happened to me twice before, so I got really upset, but looking at the bigger picture, it really is okay. Next week will be A LOT better, I set a very high goal for myself, 2.5 pounds. I just need to stay motivated, because this weeks weigh in was a true discouragment to say the least. Since my first weigh of my second year, I lost an inch off my waist, making my total so far 7 inches lost! That made the dissappointment of a gain this week a lot better!

Even though the number on the scale sucked, this week was great for other reasons. Just need to stay positive, and keep working very hard.

Letting go.

I got a message from an old friend last night, he said the nicest things to me about this journey, and how I have found my happiness, and it really got me thinking...

When I look back on my middle and high school years, I always think of the negitive things and events that happened. I see the times I was made fun of, the times I felt disgusting, and I think of the people who were mean to me. The message I got last night really made me think of the friends I did have. The people who accepted me for what I was, and thought I was beautiful anyway. They stuck up for me, and made me feel safe. They are the people that made me feel brave, and the reason I was able to drag myself to school each day. Even if I haven't talked to you since we graduated, you know exactly who you are and I want to thank you, I have not given you the credit you deserve.

I will forever look back at the good times. I am moving forward with my life in so many ways, and now, I know apart of that is letting go of everything negitive about my past.

Positivity!

I think this weekend was as close to perfect as it gets. I feel like things in my life are getting back to normal, I am feeling much better, and I am just ridiculously  happy. I've dicovered a lot of things in the past couple weeks, and the main one is, being happy is a lot more fun than being down. Also, not to let little things bring me down. I let EVERYTHING get to me, and stress me out, and this past week I really have been trying to work on that, and I feel so much better. I think that had something to do with my weight loss this past week. I just feel more laid back and relaxed. Positive mind set = positive journey.

I tryed some new foods and recipes this weekend. My mom found whole wheat pancake mix. I am in love. They taste like a flat corn muffin. The texture is very hardy, and they were very filling. The serving size was 1/3 cup of the batter. That makes a pretty big pancake, I had 2 for 260 calories. I didn't want to soak it in fattening butter, or sugary syrup so as they were cooking, I sprinked cinnamon on both sides, and they were really yummy.

Also, I made pizza bagels for lunch yesturday. I took 2 whole wheat Thomas's mini bagels. Toasted them. Then I spread about 1 teaspoon full of ragu homestyle pizza sauce on each half, all together it was 1/4 cup, 30 caloires, and 1/3 cup weight watchers italian style blend cheese, a big pinch on each half, 70 caloires all together. Then I put them under the broiler to melt the cheese. They tasted amazing, all for 320 calories. Those I will definitely be making again! Much healthier than the frozen ones!

My weigh in, as always, is on thursday. I am very confident. I have been having a great week, and started doing some light workouts, nothing crazy, just walking and pilates, don't want to hurt myself more! However, my head is feeling better. No more headaches, the dizziness is pretty much gone too. I still have a huge, painful bump though, I wonder how long that will take to go away?! Hopefully soon.



                                                                          

Weigh in #3

Waking up this morning I honestly didn't even remember it was my weigh in day. This week was very interesting, and losing weight was not my top priority. I was more concerned about getting better. I continuted my healthy eating, but didn't work out at all, because of my concussion. I've just been taking it easy. Therefore, I was not expecting any kind of loss this week. However, I was pleasantly surprised to step on the scale this morning and see a 2.8 pound loss, for the 2nd week in a row! I CANNOT believe it. I have absolutly no complaints though. I thought my scale was messed up or something. I weighed myself like 5 times, and sure enough, it's true. This really is great, I have no explanation for it, other then really focusing on healthy eating.  Im so excited to move forward, get better and start working out again!

My goal for next week is 1 pound.

Set back #12000

So, my head has gotten worse since my episode. I have a constant headache, feel dizzy, and just so weak. I went to the doctor today and it turns out I have a concussion from my fall. Seriously? This would happen to me. The doctor said I cannot workout until my dizziness stops completely. She said it may be 2 weeks. I cannot afford to lose 2 weeks of this. How many more set backs can I possibly handel? It is getting so annoying! I just want to work on this consistantly, with no interruptions! I know ,however, set backs are going to happen. You just cannot give up on something if you want to more than anything. Just have to keep going!

On a more positive note, this was the first time I was at the doctor in a year and 2 months. She was thrilled with my weight loss. That made me feel great. There aren't too many people I see in my life as rarley as my doctor, and she noticed it without looking at my charts. She said I looked great, THEN went in her little computer to see how much I had lost. It felt really good.

I got to see a sneak peek at my weight today at the doctor too, because now my mom hides the scale from me. I know I atleast lost a pound, hopefully by thursday I can pull another 1/2 pound to reach my weekly goal. But with everything that went on this week, I'm just happy Im okay!

Since working out isn't even possible till Im better I need to put on my focus on really healthy eating. No mistakes! That way I may still have a chance at losing a couple pounds.

My Saturday.

Saturday was the most interesting, life-changing day of my life so far. Here is what happened...

I was feeling sick all through-out the night. I kept waking up with a little stomach ache, but nothing I was alarmed about. I woke up around 9:30, layed in bed watching T.V till about 11. I felt a little under the weather, but I was going to go on with my day as usual. I got in the shower, everything was fine until I got this over-whelming feeling that I was going to throw up. I got out of the shower, and all I could really do was just stand there. I didn't understand what was going on with my body. I felt sick, dizzy, heavy and just awful all at once. The sound of the water got really quite, and the next thing I knew, I woke up, laying on the bathroom floor. I passed out , and hit my head on the tile floor. After about 5 seconds of trying to figure out where I was, I got sick. My head was absolutely killing me,and  my memory was blurred. I was absolutley terrified.

Thankfuly Joe was there, and heard me fall and rushed to see what happened. He woke me up from my black out. I think what woke up me was the terror in his voice. I had never heard him so scared before. He drove me to the E.R and stayed with me all day. I honestly don't think I could ever repay him for his support and help, and for staying calm all day for me, even though I am sure, well I know, he was just as scared as I was.

They gave me a catscan, and E.K.G and took viles of blood. After about 5 hours. I was discharged. The E.R doctor was very concerned about my sugar levels. I was tested there, and I was at about an 86. Which is on the boarder of being low. Turns out, the night before I ate something bad. My body was so over-whelmed by it, that I had this episode. I think it was a combination of the two.

I am okay now, other than a HUGE bump on my head, bruising on my shoulders, lower back, and being very sore. This could have been much worse. When something like this happenes, you really see your world differently. Up until then, nothing this scarey had ever happened to me before. It is kind of sad it took something like this to jolt me back to wanting to be happy all the time, and realizing life is so short, and in one moment your world can be turned upside down. I am so thankful for my family, my friends, and espeically Joe for being the hero.

This will obviously effect my weight-loss this week. No exercise until my head is better. This does delay it, but getting better is my top priorty. This gave me another reason to lose my weight. I never want to be in a hospital again. It isn't a fun place to be at all. I'm glad that through such a negitive experience, I have a new outlook on my health and my life.

Weigh in #2.

I lost 2.8 pounds this week! YAYAY!

I couldn't be more happy. I was very confident going into my weighin this morning. I did so amazing with my calories, and workouts this week. Also, my mom hid the scale. Everything worked out perfect! It's great to see your hard work pay off. Nothing else really do report today, but I will update again soon :)
My goal for next week is to lose a pound and a half.