Considering I lost close to 5 pounds last week, I wasn't expecting much of a loss this week. I did, however, lose a pound! I'm extremely happy with this because this week, I had Easter to get through, and I did have my fair share of chocolate!
Having small losses should never be a let down. Whether you have a 3 or 0.5 pound loss. It should always be celebrated. It is a step in the right direction and small losses will add up in the end. Because of my 1 pound loss this week, I lost a total of 8.2 pounds in the month of April. I could not be any happier!
Thursday, April 28, 2011
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Changes.
I remember when this all began I was most excited for one thing in particular, Clothes. I was so excited to get new ones, wear things I had never been able to before, and just dress however I wanted too, with no restrictions. However, the part I was most excited about is giving me the most problems.
I don't know why this is happening all of a sudden, but my body is changing every, about 2 weeks. In the past 3 weeks alone I went from a size 16 to a 14. None of my pants fit me, everything I bought months ago for spring is now way to big. Most people are probably saying, that is a good thing. It is for sure, but at the same time, causing issues for me.
Ever since I worked in retail, I have had a thing for clothes. I love to look nice no matter where I am going. I have always defined myself by what I wear and how I present myself. Lately, because all my clothes are huge and don't fit me right, or fit me great one week, then a week later no longer do, I feel very uncertain. I almost feel bad about myself. I feel like I am lacking the confidence I had when I was at my heaviest. It sounds crazy but this is what I am facing. My mom of course knows exactly how I feel. She said she has been through it, and it's one of the hardest things about losing weight. It's like having to get to know yourself all over again, all the time.
I was in tears today trying to get dressed. My room is a mess because I would try something on that I thought would fit, but it didn't. After trying like 10 outfits on I finally was able to pick something that fit decent. I decided I needed to go get at least some stuff to hold me over till the next size change. I got some new workout clothes, a couple shirts and a pair of pants. I bought my first EVER size medium workout pants today. In the beginning they were extra, extra larges!
I know I just have to keep my head up. I know it sounds so silly to be so upset over something so great, but it is creating daily uncertainty, something I am not okay with. I need to gain back my confidence. I have never felt so gross. I still see myself 70 pounds ago. I need to re-learn my body and what looks good on it.
I am going to work through this just fine. Spending so much money on clothes every month however is a huge blow to my bank account. I am about to go get rid of more clothes though. Goodwill must LOVE me!!
I don't know why this is happening all of a sudden, but my body is changing every, about 2 weeks. In the past 3 weeks alone I went from a size 16 to a 14. None of my pants fit me, everything I bought months ago for spring is now way to big. Most people are probably saying, that is a good thing. It is for sure, but at the same time, causing issues for me.
Ever since I worked in retail, I have had a thing for clothes. I love to look nice no matter where I am going. I have always defined myself by what I wear and how I present myself. Lately, because all my clothes are huge and don't fit me right, or fit me great one week, then a week later no longer do, I feel very uncertain. I almost feel bad about myself. I feel like I am lacking the confidence I had when I was at my heaviest. It sounds crazy but this is what I am facing. My mom of course knows exactly how I feel. She said she has been through it, and it's one of the hardest things about losing weight. It's like having to get to know yourself all over again, all the time.
I was in tears today trying to get dressed. My room is a mess because I would try something on that I thought would fit, but it didn't. After trying like 10 outfits on I finally was able to pick something that fit decent. I decided I needed to go get at least some stuff to hold me over till the next size change. I got some new workout clothes, a couple shirts and a pair of pants. I bought my first EVER size medium workout pants today. In the beginning they were extra, extra larges!
I know I just have to keep my head up. I know it sounds so silly to be so upset over something so great, but it is creating daily uncertainty, something I am not okay with. I need to gain back my confidence. I have never felt so gross. I still see myself 70 pounds ago. I need to re-learn my body and what looks good on it.
I am going to work through this just fine. Spending so much money on clothes every month however is a huge blow to my bank account. I am about to go get rid of more clothes though. Goodwill must LOVE me!!
Saturday, April 23, 2011
Meatlessness/Easter.
I haven't made an official decision, but I think I may be ready to go vegetarian. This is an idea I have considered for years. I have tried it maybe 3 times and then it just didn't work out. I haven't had any meat since Monday. I really feel a huge difference. I just feel lighter, it's hard to explain. I think it will work this time because I am more educated about food in general and substitutes for protein. Other times I tried I was kind of clueless. I want to really try it out before I declare anything. We will see how it goes for maybe the next week or two.
Tomorrow I am going to Joe's house for Easter brunch. Like on Christmas and Thanksgiving I'm not going to worry about counting calories. Holiday's are days to have fun and celebrate, NOT to worry about what you are eating. Obviously, keeping in mind not to go crazy! I made the cutest Easter dessert to bring! Carrot cake cupcakes with lavender colored cream cheese frosting. They are so cute. I had a bite of one tonight and I fell in love! Cupcakes are my favorite sweet in the whole wide world. I rarely have them anymore. Which is good, they are yummier if you only have them once in a while!
So the plan for tomorrow is:
Eat healthy & make good choices.
If there is something I know is not good, have a small portion/bite (just to try).
Have a cupcake!
Love my mom even more because she didn't put any candy in my basket <3
Get a workout in.
I know a lot of people trying to eat healthy and lose weight dread days like Easter, but it really does not have to ruin anything. Just keep a level head, make good choices, cheat a tiny bit, and you'll be fine!
Good luck! and Have fun!
Tomorrow I am going to Joe's house for Easter brunch. Like on Christmas and Thanksgiving I'm not going to worry about counting calories. Holiday's are days to have fun and celebrate, NOT to worry about what you are eating. Obviously, keeping in mind not to go crazy! I made the cutest Easter dessert to bring! Carrot cake cupcakes with lavender colored cream cheese frosting. They are so cute. I had a bite of one tonight and I fell in love! Cupcakes are my favorite sweet in the whole wide world. I rarely have them anymore. Which is good, they are yummier if you only have them once in a while!
So the plan for tomorrow is:
Eat healthy & make good choices.
If there is something I know is not good, have a small portion/bite (just to try).
Have a cupcake!
Love my mom even more because she didn't put any candy in my basket <3
Get a workout in.
I know a lot of people trying to eat healthy and lose weight dread days like Easter, but it really does not have to ruin anything. Just keep a level head, make good choices, cheat a tiny bit, and you'll be fine!
Good luck! and Have fun!
Thursday, April 21, 2011
Weigh in #9
This week has been one of the busiest weeks I have had in months. I had a ton of homework, and a huge project due all at the end of this week. My weigh in was truly not on my mind. I stuck to perfect eating, but only worked out 2 times this week. I was only 0.8 pounds away from being the smallest weight I have ever been. That was my goal this week. I just wanted to see that number. Since the beginning of all this, it has been a milestone I knew would mean the world to me. I got on the scale this morning, and to my surprise. I lost 4.6 pounds....
I am almost 4 pounds past that smallest number ever. I cannot believe this. I am so incredibly happy, the tears started immediately flowing. It was truly an indescribable type of happy. I came downstairs and told my mom, she started to cry too. It means so much to me that she cares about this as much, if not more than I do. Her support is crucial to me.
My confidants has been low for the past few weeks, and now, it is back with a bang. My goal for next week is a one and a half pound loss. I'm just so excited :)
I am almost 4 pounds past that smallest number ever. I cannot believe this. I am so incredibly happy, the tears started immediately flowing. It was truly an indescribable type of happy. I came downstairs and told my mom, she started to cry too. It means so much to me that she cares about this as much, if not more than I do. Her support is crucial to me.
My confidants has been low for the past few weeks, and now, it is back with a bang. My goal for next week is a one and a half pound loss. I'm just so excited :)
Thursday, April 14, 2011
Weigh in #8
Going into this weigh in, I knew it was going to be good. It is that time of the month, so that always means water weight gain. Last month as you can see I had a 2 pound gain. However, this time I actually lost a half pound. I'm happy I didn't see a gain on the scale. I'm really happy with this small loss, it is something, and every bit counts towards my over-all goal! My goal for next week is 2 pounds lost. I am very confident about it.
I'm really looking forward to Sunday, Im going to six flags. Last time I was there, 50 pounds ago, I barley fit in the rides. Im so excited to go, and just not worry about my size. I'll feel normal!
I'm really looking forward to Sunday, Im going to six flags. Last time I was there, 50 pounds ago, I barley fit in the rides. Im so excited to go, and just not worry about my size. I'll feel normal!
Sunday, April 10, 2011
A must try!
I haven't had pasta in over a year. I used to eat it constantly because I'm Italian and that is what we eat in my house. I was emailed the most amazing recipe from the biggest loser club and OMG. It is one of the best dishes I have ever had. I'm going to post the recipe and directions for everyone to try. It's so simple and yummy and the serving is huge, I could barley finish.
Baked Ziti:
Olive oil spray
1 (14 ½-ounce) box fiber-enriched ziti or penne rigate
1 (15-ounce) container fat-free ricotta cheese
2 large egg whites
8 ounces (4 cups) finely shredded reduced-fat mozzarella cheese
¼ teaspoon garlic powder
Salt, to taste
Ground black pepper, to taste
Crushed red pepper flakes, to taste
3 ½ cups low-fat, low-sodium, marinara
2 tablespoons grated reduced-fat Parmesan cheese
Preheat the oven to 450°F.
Lightly mist a 13" × 9" × 2" ceramic or glass baking dish with the olive oil spray.
Cook the ziti according to package directions. Drain.
In a large mixing bowl, mix the ricotta, egg whites, and all but 1 cup of the mozzarella until well combined. Add the garlic powder and season with salt, pepper, and red pepper flakes. Stir in the cooked pasta until well combined.
Spread 1 cup of the marinara sauce on the bottom of the prepared dish. Add half of the pasta in an even layer over the sauce. Top the pasta evenly with another 1 cup sauce. Layer the remaining pasta over the sauce. Spoon the remaining 1 ½ cups sauce evenly over the top of the pasta, then sprinkle the remaining mozzarella and the Parmesan over the top.
Cover the dish with aluminum foil and bake for 20 minutes. Remove the foil and bake 10 minutes longer, or until the mozzarella is melted. Let stand 5 minutes. Cut into 8 pieces or spoon among 8 bowls and serve.
Makes 8 servings
Per serving: 350 calories, 22 g protein, 57 g carbohydrates, 6 g fat (3 g saturated), 20 mg cholesterol, 8 g fiber, 429 mg sodium
Baked Ziti:
Olive oil spray
1 (14 ½-ounce) box fiber-enriched ziti or penne rigate
1 (15-ounce) container fat-free ricotta cheese
2 large egg whites
8 ounces (4 cups) finely shredded reduced-fat mozzarella cheese
¼ teaspoon garlic powder
Salt, to taste
Ground black pepper, to taste
Crushed red pepper flakes, to taste
3 ½ cups low-fat, low-sodium, marinara
2 tablespoons grated reduced-fat Parmesan cheese
Preheat the oven to 450°F.
Lightly mist a 13" × 9" × 2" ceramic or glass baking dish with the olive oil spray.
Cook the ziti according to package directions. Drain.
In a large mixing bowl, mix the ricotta, egg whites, and all but 1 cup of the mozzarella until well combined. Add the garlic powder and season with salt, pepper, and red pepper flakes. Stir in the cooked pasta until well combined.
Spread 1 cup of the marinara sauce on the bottom of the prepared dish. Add half of the pasta in an even layer over the sauce. Top the pasta evenly with another 1 cup sauce. Layer the remaining pasta over the sauce. Spoon the remaining 1 ½ cups sauce evenly over the top of the pasta, then sprinkle the remaining mozzarella and the Parmesan over the top.
Cover the dish with aluminum foil and bake for 20 minutes. Remove the foil and bake 10 minutes longer, or until the mozzarella is melted. Let stand 5 minutes. Cut into 8 pieces or spoon among 8 bowls and serve.
Makes 8 servings
Per serving: 350 calories, 22 g protein, 57 g carbohydrates, 6 g fat (3 g saturated), 20 mg cholesterol, 8 g fiber, 429 mg sodium
Thursday, April 7, 2011
Weigh in #7
I lost 2 pounds this week. What a great way to start off the month of April, and something I needed badly. The begining of this week was tough, and for some reason unknown, I was doubting myself and abilities. I am so happy to see a loss this week, I needed this motivation horribly. I am so excited to move forward and just simply lose this weight! I am a pound and a half away from an important milestone, the smallest I have ever been. I was 16 when I was and here I am 4 years later so close. Therefore, my goal for next week is to lose that pound and a half! I am so excited :)
Monday, April 4, 2011
Back on track
I am so happy to report I am out of my "blah" phase. Today was a new day, a new week:). What's most important to me is losing this weight. I am not going to let myself get down or feel shitty over anything!
Today was a good day in general. I had a great day with work, school was good, but most of all I de-cluttered my room. This may be crazy but if my room is messy or cluttered it makes me feel all weird. I feel a lot less stressed if I have a clean, simple room. I threw out 2 bags of old stuff and put together a box filled with stuff for my mom to sell at a future garage sale. I also am giving 2 bags of clothes away to charity. I got rid of my old bathing suits, all my old pairs and leggings and a bunch of sweaters that were too big. It is always a great feeling to get rid of like, the 7th bag of "fat" clothes!
What also pulled me out of my blahness was a lot of compliments today. At school I had 3 people ask "Have you lost more weight?!" So great to have your hard work recognized. To top it off I found this picture...
This was 2 months before I started my journey I was a size 22/24. I am NEVERNEVERNEVER going back. I will keep that promise to myself until the day I leave this earth.
Here is my journal from today:
Breakfast: Eggwhite & cheese on whole wheat toast: 175
Strawberries: 25
Coffee: 50
Total: 250
Snack: Greek yogurt w/ blueberries: 170
Lunch: Vegetable soup: 100
Turkey on whole wheat: 170
Total: 270
Snack: Rice cake: 30
Apple: 80
Total: 110
Dinner: 4 oz. Salmon: 175
2/3 cup brown rice: 150
Salad w/crasins & light walnut vinaigrette: 190
Total: 515
Snack: Pistachios: 160
Total: 1475 calories.
Water: 80oz.
I ate 6 times today and still am 135 calories under my 1600 goal. Eating 3 smaller meals a day, and 3 snacks will help you maintain your metabolism. Not eating for long periods of time will slow it down, and make it that much more difficult to lose anything!
Today was a good day in general. I had a great day with work, school was good, but most of all I de-cluttered my room. This may be crazy but if my room is messy or cluttered it makes me feel all weird. I feel a lot less stressed if I have a clean, simple room. I threw out 2 bags of old stuff and put together a box filled with stuff for my mom to sell at a future garage sale. I also am giving 2 bags of clothes away to charity. I got rid of my old bathing suits, all my old pairs and leggings and a bunch of sweaters that were too big. It is always a great feeling to get rid of like, the 7th bag of "fat" clothes!
What also pulled me out of my blahness was a lot of compliments today. At school I had 3 people ask "Have you lost more weight?!" So great to have your hard work recognized. To top it off I found this picture...
This was 2 months before I started my journey I was a size 22/24. I am NEVERNEVERNEVER going back. I will keep that promise to myself until the day I leave this earth.
Here is my journal from today:
Breakfast: Eggwhite & cheese on whole wheat toast: 175
Strawberries: 25
Coffee: 50
Total: 250
Snack: Greek yogurt w/ blueberries: 170
Lunch: Vegetable soup: 100
Turkey on whole wheat: 170
Total: 270
Snack: Rice cake: 30
Apple: 80
Total: 110
Dinner: 4 oz. Salmon: 175
2/3 cup brown rice: 150
Salad w/crasins & light walnut vinaigrette: 190
Total: 515
Snack: Pistachios: 160
Total: 1475 calories.
Water: 80oz.
I ate 6 times today and still am 135 calories under my 1600 goal. Eating 3 smaller meals a day, and 3 snacks will help you maintain your metabolism. Not eating for long periods of time will slow it down, and make it that much more difficult to lose anything!
Sunday, April 3, 2011
Blah...
Last week, and now this week I feel really just, blah. I am going about my days just, going with the flow. I am not excited or happy. I am not sad or mad either. I am just in this weird place right now. I feel tired, and unmotivated. I do not know where this is coming from what-so-ever. Since mid-February I have been so happy and excited every day to work towards this weight loss, and I just don't know what hit me.
I am still eating great, sticking to healthy options, I worked out Monday, Wednesday and today, and had pretty active days in between. The only thing I can think of is, my sleep still isn't back to normal and I caught a cold Wednesday night, I am feeling like 80% better now but I just do not know. I really have never felt like this on this journey. I need something to get me back to feeling great. I hope I find my motivation soon, or I will have 2 bad weigh In's in a row. This is so sad, not even writing about it, which usually helps isn't helping.
I need to get out of this slump very quickly...
I am still eating great, sticking to healthy options, I worked out Monday, Wednesday and today, and had pretty active days in between. The only thing I can think of is, my sleep still isn't back to normal and I caught a cold Wednesday night, I am feeling like 80% better now but I just do not know. I really have never felt like this on this journey. I need something to get me back to feeling great. I hope I find my motivation soon, or I will have 2 bad weigh In's in a row. This is so sad, not even writing about it, which usually helps isn't helping.
I need to get out of this slump very quickly...
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