This week...

This week was no walk in the park. It is getting to the point in the semester again when all I am doing is homework and freaking out. Not ideal conditions for losing your last 23 pounds. I gained  0.4 pounds. I wasn't surprised. Stressed, exhausted, getting my period and not eating like I should be- I'm surprised I didn't gain more to be honest. I have had so many of these weeks throughout my journey. Those weeks that YOU take a back seat to what you going on around you. It happens, there is no way to avoid it. I just do my best to get RIGHT back on track as soon as I can. I never let it discourage me, because it truly is. I am SO close to reaching my ultimate 154.4 pound goal. If I had 3 months and nothing else on my plate, I would just get it done. Unfortunately, that is not the case and it never will be. So far this week has been good. I got my period last night, so hopefully my results this week are not effected by it. We will see :) ALWAYS look forward, never back.

I have never been so happy.

Yay!

FINALLY!!

My first week on weight watchers was a complete success! I lost 1.8 pounds. That brings my total loss to 116.6 pounds and my weight to 177.8. To me, that is so little! I never in a million years thought after weighing 294.4 pounds, I would ever be in the 100's let alone in the 70's! What an accomplishment.

Weight watchers is lovely. It opened up a whole new door for me. I do not have to worry about counting calories, writing everything I eat down and feeling like I can't eat certain things. This week went so smoothly. I just ate how I normally do, and since weight watchers allowed me to eat more than I normally did, I had some extras :). I am beginning to think that was my problem for the past few months. Was I not eating enough? Very Possible. All fruits and vegetables are 0 points. So I think that is why I had success. I loaded up this week, something I feel like recently I have not been doing. Weight watchers has freed me from my old routine and given me something new. It is working out so well and I couldn't be happier.

I saw this post on a blog and it got me thinking:

 This  thought is what motivated me to lose weight. For the first time ever, I do not feel fat anymore. I feel small and thin. I now know what is it like to be thinner and it exceeded all my expectations. I am truly happy for the first time in my entire life. Feeling this way was worth all the struggles and bumps in the road :)

News.

I have some news to share. I sort of feel like a traitor in some ways. However, I am going to fully explain my decision.

This journey has been long, and it still isn't over. The past couple of months have been rough. I have been struggling everyday and seeing little results. I know this is happening because of thoughts I have that I can no longer control. I have lost 115 pounds. However, I am still overweight and have a good 25 pounds to lose. That bothers me. I still get mad at myself for letting my weight get so out of control. You would think after losing 115 pounds I would be a stick. Im not. I am still a size 10/12. There is absolutely nothing wrong with that, however, for me this is all just a reality of how big I truly was.

I have come so far. I have worked hard day in and day out. I lost the weight by eating healthy and working out on my own. I had absolutely no help. I figured out what was best for me, and counted my calories. I figured out what exercises I needed to do to get into shape. I have taken pride in the fact that I did it alone for the past 2 years, and have had great success.

Things are slowing down, and frankly I am so tired of the same routine day after day. I need a fresh start. Something I can do that will allow me to let go of the past and simply focus on these last 25 pounds.

All of that being said, I joined weight watchers. Let me tell you how positive it has been thus far. It was so refreshing to sign up for it, and enter my weight at 180 pounds. That moment allowed me to just let go of the past, and just be that person who has less than 30 pounds to lose. It was so positive and made me feel great. The format is different than what I have been doing and I feel like I need it. I need something different and new. I feel like this is what I need to get fully healthy and happy.

I picked weight watchers in particular because of the points system. I can still eat like I was, just make some tweaks and no long count calories! YAY! I am allowed 30 points a day and an allowance of an extra 49 per week that I can use however I want. I can start seeing how my exercise helps me toward my goal as well. Activities and workouts are also added up into points.  Another reason I picked weight watchers is because through out this journey I have always purchased some weight watchers food anyway. Like their whole wheat bread and ice cream. It is easy and convenient to purchase since it is sold in regular grocery stores.

I feel like this is a new beginning for me on this long journey. I need this more than I can explain. I will still update weekly with my results, I weigh in on Wednesdays still! I am excited to share all my new discoveries and my awesome results in the upcoming weeks.

I may have had the guts to do this on my own in the beginning, but I also have the guts to look for help when I know I need it. Hopefully everyone understand my decision.

Sick and -115 pic.

This week was so bizzare. It started off great- I worked out Thursday and Friday. I spent the weekend in long island with Joe. My food choices were perfect. I was feeling great until Sunday. I'm still not even sure what it was. I'm not sure if I got food poisioning or a virus but I was really sick all night Sunday and all day Monday. I could barley eat at first, but when I could stomach anything it was bread and crackers. It was a rough couple of days and really threw me off. My weight this week stayed the same. I couldn't do pretty much anything about getting sick, and feeling like death. I worked out for the first time since Friday last night. I am still really exhaused from being sick, but things are back on track. I know this coming weeks results will be amazing. I hate when stuff like this happenes because it really is out of your control. I wanted to post another before and after. 115 pounds lighter and couldn't be happier<3!

Slowly but surely

Slow and steady wins the race, right? I think so.

The past three weeks have just been great. Everything is back on track. I was able to lose 0.8 pounds again this week. That makes my total for the past 3 weeks 3 pounds lost. In the month of January alone I lost 2 pounds so this is nothing short of amazing.

I was able to get over another huge bump in the road this morning as well. I have been stuck between 180 and 183 since December. I told myself this morning if I saw a 180 one  more time I was going to scream my head off. I even began doubting myself, wondering if this is just the weight I am suppose to be. No. It's not. I proved that to myself this morning when I saw 179.6- FINALLY!!!!

I am in the 170's officially, I have lost 115 pounds, I am officially not considered obese anymore (according to the BMI index) This is what I have been waiting for. 

With time and hard work, you can achieve anything.

YES!

FINALLY. Some decent results. My weigh in yesterday was a wonderful success. I lost 1.4 pounds, and couldn't be more happy. I worked very hard this past week and I now understand and see the changes that were necessary to make. I lowered my calories by about 75 each day. I also started working out- doing the same thing I was, just simply added an an extra 10-15 minutes.
Sometimes I forget how far I have come and how much I have really lost. I tend to stick with doing the same things over and over. It is super important to switch things up on a weekly basis. Whether it be your eating patters or workouts. Once your body gets used to something, your results won't be the same.

I am glad I finally figured out the problem and I cannot wait to see what the next couple weeks results are, I feel fully back on track and I love it!