News.

I have some news to share. I sort of feel like a traitor in some ways. However, I am going to fully explain my decision.

This journey has been long, and it still isn't over. The past couple of months have been rough. I have been struggling everyday and seeing little results. I know this is happening because of thoughts I have that I can no longer control. I have lost 115 pounds. However, I am still overweight and have a good 25 pounds to lose. That bothers me. I still get mad at myself for letting my weight get so out of control. You would think after losing 115 pounds I would be a stick. Im not. I am still a size 10/12. There is absolutely nothing wrong with that, however, for me this is all just a reality of how big I truly was.

I have come so far. I have worked hard day in and day out. I lost the weight by eating healthy and working out on my own. I had absolutely no help. I figured out what was best for me, and counted my calories. I figured out what exercises I needed to do to get into shape. I have taken pride in the fact that I did it alone for the past 2 years, and have had great success.

Things are slowing down, and frankly I am so tired of the same routine day after day. I need a fresh start. Something I can do that will allow me to let go of the past and simply focus on these last 25 pounds.

All of that being said, I joined weight watchers. Let me tell you how positive it has been thus far. It was so refreshing to sign up for it, and enter my weight at 180 pounds. That moment allowed me to just let go of the past, and just be that person who has less than 30 pounds to lose. It was so positive and made me feel great. The format is different than what I have been doing and I feel like I need it. I need something different and new. I feel like this is what I need to get fully healthy and happy.

I picked weight watchers in particular because of the points system. I can still eat like I was, just make some tweaks and no long count calories! YAY! I am allowed 30 points a day and an allowance of an extra 49 per week that I can use however I want. I can start seeing how my exercise helps me toward my goal as well. Activities and workouts are also added up into points.  Another reason I picked weight watchers is because through out this journey I have always purchased some weight watchers food anyway. Like their whole wheat bread and ice cream. It is easy and convenient to purchase since it is sold in regular grocery stores.

I feel like this is a new beginning for me on this long journey. I need this more than I can explain. I will still update weekly with my results, I weigh in on Wednesdays still! I am excited to share all my new discoveries and my awesome results in the upcoming weeks.

I may have had the guts to do this on my own in the beginning, but I also have the guts to look for help when I know I need it. Hopefully everyone understand my decision.