So today is Halloween.. yay?
I'm not in the spirit what so ever. This past weekend we got covered in over a foot of snow, had no electricity for almost 48 hours. It was so bad. One of the worst weekends of my life by far. We didn't have natural gas either, so we couldn't even cook. We had to eat out every meal and let me tell you what a challenge that was. Sunday, I literally did not even a piece of fruit. First time in 2 years. I feel physically exhausted from my lack of healthy eating, and stress over this weekend. I am so glad that the power is back, and things are back to normal. However, some people in my area are still with out power. So horrible for this time of year. It got done to 52 degrees in my house last night. I could only image how much colder it will get tonight. I feel so terrible for those people :(
With all this snow on the ground it feels like Thanksgiving, or Christmas. Halloween this year was a total bust. I hope next year is much, much better and I can actually dress up!
So, this year for Halloween I decided to go candy shopping with my Mom. Not so I could pick out the candy I loved, but to buy and hand out candy to trick or treaters that I do not like. Perfect solution. Last year I remember I ate a lot of candy on Halloween because my Mom bought all my favorites. What is the point? Candy is fun when your little, not when your trying to lose/maintain a major weightloss. This year, I haven't had any! I made sure not to get Reese's, or star burst or anything that I knew I wouldn't be able to resist.
Looking forward to my weigh in on Thursday, hopefully this weekend didn't mess me up too much!
Monday, October 31, 2011
Thursday, October 20, 2011
4.6 + pics
This past week has been one of the craziest, busiest weeks I have EVER had. My birthday was Sunday, so of course it was an all weekend long celebration. Once Monday came, it has been non-stop. I literally did homework Tuesday from 10am to 11pm, with maybe a 2 hour break someone in there. My brain is fryed and I did not work out at ALL. I have been eating extremely healthy though. My weight loss has been far from the last thing on my mind, I didn't even remember it was my weigh in until I was about to leave the house this morning.
However, I stepped on the scale and lost 4.6 pounds? I'm so confused! I thought the scale was wrong. I weighed myself 3 more times, then weighed myself on another scale just to make sure. It was right.
Here is what I think happened- Like I mentioned, I have had a very active week, I was on the move from the second I woke up till I fell asleep, no down time! I didn't have time to even think about eating, so when I did eat, I grabbed very healthy stuff, like fruits and veggies. AND I think because I finally reached my 100 pound goal, I wasn't self doubting or having negative thoughts, I just went with the flow.
Ill take it!! This brings my total loss to -105 pounds! CRRRAAZZZYYYY!
This is probably the last week that I will lose so much in a short amount of time, I am enjoying it while it lasts. Time to get my butt moving. I need to organize my time better so I have time to get to the gym. I wanted to share this as well ....
Saturday, October 15, 2011
Where to go from here?
Losing 100 pounds is a pretty big deal. However, my journey is NOT over. Like I mentioned in my last post, this will never be over for me. I will need to maintain my healthy eating and exercise the rest of my life. I am totally fine and willing to take that challenge. Now, looking back, the way I feel now is worth it. Being so obese was debilitating. Anyway,what is next for me?
I still want to lose another 25 pounds. I am so happy with how I look and feel now, but I have a lot of toning to do. I am currently in a size 12 (from a 24), my goal in the beginning of all of this was to get down to a size 10. I figure losing another 25 pounds would put me there.
Instead of losing as much as humanly possible in a week (as healthy as possible of course) I really am going to relax and take my time with my last 25 lbs. I have a lot going on with school, and I don't have as much time to work out as I used too. If I can only get to the gym twice a week instead of three I am not going to beat myself up like I used too. This doesn't mean I am giving up, or using school as an excuse to not work as hard. I am still working extremely hard, and want this next 25 terribly. However, I am just not going to be crazy about every little thing. I need to learn to be able to live while being healthy, not live while trying to lose 100 pounds. Know what I mean? I need to get used to maintaining this. I need to see how that aspect will fit into my life. So moving forward, the goal is to lose 1 pound a week. Just 1. That means, I will reach my , what I am going to call now, my ultimate goal, right around the time of my 2 year anniversary of getting healthy. Perfect timing!
I wanted to share this picture on my blog, like I already did on my facebook. Just a little dose of inspiration for you :) This "before" picture was about 2 and a half years ago, and my "after" was from 2 weeks ago.
I still want to lose another 25 pounds. I am so happy with how I look and feel now, but I have a lot of toning to do. I am currently in a size 12 (from a 24), my goal in the beginning of all of this was to get down to a size 10. I figure losing another 25 pounds would put me there.
Instead of losing as much as humanly possible in a week (as healthy as possible of course) I really am going to relax and take my time with my last 25 lbs. I have a lot going on with school, and I don't have as much time to work out as I used too. If I can only get to the gym twice a week instead of three I am not going to beat myself up like I used too. This doesn't mean I am giving up, or using school as an excuse to not work as hard. I am still working extremely hard, and want this next 25 terribly. However, I am just not going to be crazy about every little thing. I need to learn to be able to live while being healthy, not live while trying to lose 100 pounds. Know what I mean? I need to get used to maintaining this. I need to see how that aspect will fit into my life. So moving forward, the goal is to lose 1 pound a week. Just 1. That means, I will reach my , what I am going to call now, my ultimate goal, right around the time of my 2 year anniversary of getting healthy. Perfect timing!
I wanted to share this picture on my blog, like I already did on my facebook. Just a little dose of inspiration for you :) This "before" picture was about 2 and a half years ago, and my "after" was from 2 weeks ago.
Thursday, October 6, 2011
-100.4 pounds. I did it!
1 year, 7 months and 12 days ago I made a choice, a choice I had mad so many times before. I wanted to lose weight. I can't explain why this time worked, or why this time was different, but I succeeded. I achieved something today I have wanted for 11 years. I have officially lost over 100 pounds.
When I stepped on the scale thing morning, waiting for the lines to stop blinking and my weight to pop up, I thought my heart was going to beat out of my chest, or my knees would give out. When the number finally showed it's self, I felt like a 1000 pound weight had been lifted off my shoulders. I covered my mouth with my hands, and started to cry. It was literally the best, and most satisfying moment of my life. I did it. All of my hard work was worth it.
When I began this process all I cared about was getting skinny. As time went on, the pounds shed and I felt better I realized that isn't even why I was doing this. I was doing this because I was sick of wasting my time. I'm still so young and I was living my life like an old women. Tired all the time, lazy, never wanted to do anything or go anywhere or see anybody. I cannot tell you how much the health aspect out weighs the skinny aspect. The amount of energy I have now is something I have never experienced before. I want to take on the world, and after this achievement I know I can. Emotionally,I am healed. Depression, hatred and anxiety ruled my world before my weight loss. Now, I feel like I have a permanent smile plasterd across my face, and that's just fine with me. I needed to lose weight to live, as simple as that. I know when everyone loses weight they say this, but I seriously mean it. If I can do this, ANYONE can.
The most rewarding things that have come out of this process is knowing this journey was totally mine. I lost this weight on my own. I did not get any surgeries, I didn't take diet pills, I didn't do drugs, I didn't starve myself, I just ate healthy and exercised. The other reward has been the amount of support I have received. I started this blog to share my story in hopes that it would inspire others, and I feel it did just that. When people see my now, and they tell me what an inspiration I am, it makes sharing every fuck up, and horrible weigh in results worth it. Knowing I helped at least one person makes this all worth it.
My journey is far from over. This will never be over. Only 5% of people who were obese that lose weight actually keep it off. I WILL be in that 5%. I cannot picture my life any other way. I cannot mentally wrap my brain around ever going back to my old ways. It will never happen. My journey is a healthy lifestyle change, not a diet.
Thank you to everyone who has helped in even the slightest bit to get where I am today, you have no idea that impact you have made on me. This is such an indescribable feeling.
When I stepped on the scale thing morning, waiting for the lines to stop blinking and my weight to pop up, I thought my heart was going to beat out of my chest, or my knees would give out. When the number finally showed it's self, I felt like a 1000 pound weight had been lifted off my shoulders. I covered my mouth with my hands, and started to cry. It was literally the best, and most satisfying moment of my life. I did it. All of my hard work was worth it.
When I began this process all I cared about was getting skinny. As time went on, the pounds shed and I felt better I realized that isn't even why I was doing this. I was doing this because I was sick of wasting my time. I'm still so young and I was living my life like an old women. Tired all the time, lazy, never wanted to do anything or go anywhere or see anybody. I cannot tell you how much the health aspect out weighs the skinny aspect. The amount of energy I have now is something I have never experienced before. I want to take on the world, and after this achievement I know I can. Emotionally,I am healed. Depression, hatred and anxiety ruled my world before my weight loss. Now, I feel like I have a permanent smile plasterd across my face, and that's just fine with me. I needed to lose weight to live, as simple as that. I know when everyone loses weight they say this, but I seriously mean it. If I can do this, ANYONE can.
The most rewarding things that have come out of this process is knowing this journey was totally mine. I lost this weight on my own. I did not get any surgeries, I didn't take diet pills, I didn't do drugs, I didn't starve myself, I just ate healthy and exercised. The other reward has been the amount of support I have received. I started this blog to share my story in hopes that it would inspire others, and I feel it did just that. When people see my now, and they tell me what an inspiration I am, it makes sharing every fuck up, and horrible weigh in results worth it. Knowing I helped at least one person makes this all worth it.
My journey is far from over. This will never be over. Only 5% of people who were obese that lose weight actually keep it off. I WILL be in that 5%. I cannot picture my life any other way. I cannot mentally wrap my brain around ever going back to my old ways. It will never happen. My journey is a healthy lifestyle change, not a diet.
Thank you to everyone who has helped in even the slightest bit to get where I am today, you have no idea that impact you have made on me. This is such an indescribable feeling.
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