Average?

Realizing how far I have come so far on my journey has been difficult for me. Up until recently I still looked at myself as a size 24 86.8 pounds ago. It has been very hard for my brain to catch up with my changes. For the past 11 years I can honestly say I didn't go a day without wondering what my life would be like if I was "skinny". I imagined so many things would happen for me and my life would be completely different...

Here is the reality of right now- nothing has really changed. People still treat me the same, I still act the same and do the same things. Some people say I am more outgoing and adventurous, but who wouldn't be after shedding the pounds equivalent to a tween!?
 For the first time EVER I look somewhat normal. The average size of women in America is a 14. I currently own and wear pant sizes 12 to 14. To me, that is just unheard of.
Me?
Average?
Rubbish!!! ... I am so happy my face is about to fall off.

How can my brain wrap around this so quickly? After being so heavy my whole life and finally losing almost all of the weight in 1 year and 5 months...I don't blame myself for still feeling like an obese person. However, I am officially taking the pressure off. If I really want to lose this last 13.2 pounds I have to start dealing with the problems I am facing emotionally. I have to clear my head . I am going to start reminding myself everyday that I wear a size 12 now. I am no longer the old me, I need to get with it! I want to be happy. I want things in my life to change. I want my expectations of my "skinny" life to become reality. I am going to work so hard to do so.

Average is perfect for me right now. However, in the long run, I seriously want to kick average in the butt.