121

Since Wednesday I have lost 8.8 pounds. Yeah, this isn't some joke, I'm not dieing or anything. I haven't lost basically anything in 3 months. I think this happened for a couple of reasons-

I was VERY bloated when I came home from my vacation. Did I even mention on here yet that I went to Disney world last week? Well, I did. I had a great time but I ate absolutely horribly. Pizza, burgers, ice cream- all of those terrible foods. So, when I got back from vacation I weighed 182.2, yet again.

I wasn't going to talk about this on my blog- but I mean I have talked about more personal stuff right? You all know how much I weigh and when I get my period. So I guess this is on that level in some way.

My relationship of 5 and a half years ended on Thursday. After our vacation, it was kinda just, over. I am not going to get into details but I will say this. I felt this coming for months. Something changed and my fear of losing him was constantly on my mind. I was nervous and had anxiety about it for months. I had been holding onto what little we had left as tightly as I possibly could. I was drained and found myself very depressed this past month.. When it happened- I was devastated, obviously. I thought I was going to die. But after a couple of days of crying and stomach aches and not being able to eat- I finally was able too see what just happened to me as an adult and realize, I am going to be FINE and things happen for a reason.

Moving on- maybe this is why I dropped so much weight. Maybe not being able to eat for a couple days effected it, but I am back on track with my food and just keep losing. I am beginning to think my emotions of fear and depression really prevented me from losing weight. Maybe now that that is gone, my hard work is just paying off and my body was just ready to drop the weight I have been trying SO HARD to lose the past few months.

As of this morning I weigh 173.4 and I have lost a total of 121 pounds. Kind of crazy... This is what I have been wanting for months.