Broken.

My scale has been broken for the past week and a half. That's why I wasn't "losing weight." I really have been, just wasn't aware I guess. But this got me thinking. Stepping on the scale and seeing a 5 pound lost instead of a 1 or 2 pound loss was so so incredible. This got me thinking. Should I weigh myself so much? I've come to the conclusion NO.

It is way more inspiring to me to see a big number. This keeps me motivated and more excited. Do not get me wrong. Seeing a 1 pound loss every like 4 days is cool too. However, I really want to only weigh myself maybe once every 2 weeks so I get to see a bigger loss. This is the jolt I needed. I need to stop being so obsessed with the number on the scale. I think this is was is holding me back. Weighing myself all the time is sort of discoraging. I really only became obsessive in the past few months, and I have lost a lot less weight of recent than ever, I think this is why.

I tucked my scale away in the closet, I am NOT going to weigh myself until Febuary 4th, and then 2 weeks later again on the 18th (my one year). I honestly think this will keep me working harder. Not knowing were I am weight wise 3 times a day I think will help me stay very motivated. I'm so sad I let the number take over, and kind of put a huge, huge damper on my progess. Oh well, time to move forward, and learn from yet another set back.

My one year is on Febuary 18th. My goal is to have lost 60 pounds. I am 9 Pounds away.
I want to reach my 100 pound loss on July first, I am 43 pounds away.

I am so fucking excited.