Things lately...

Well, the end of November and this month so far have proved themselves as the toughest few weeks ever. School has been totally insane, but that is over next week so I'm not even going to get into it. All I want to say is this- things lately have not been perfect. My eating has been off, and I haven't worked out. I just keep telling myself to relax. I know if I let myself really comprehend what I am doing, I will go into a state of depression. I have gain 0.5 pounds, yea that's only a half pound over the past two weeks. I am not happy. I miss feeling good. Everyone thinks I'm nuts because I have been really down. I know I am the only one that can change the way I feel, obviously I have lost 107 pounds. I'm just in such a mental rut. Not to mention I am physically exhausted all the time. It hurts to wake up, that's how tired I am.

With crazy ass school ending next week, I feel like I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. I will have time back. Time to take care of myself again. Time to plan my meals, go to the gym and have a little fun again. I am not saying I am dissatisfied. I was able to lose 13 pounds over this insane semester. I may be lighter as it comes to an end, but I feel like CRAP. Tired, bloated, unmotivated. I don't care if I never lose another pound, I just want to feel light again.

This month long break coming up is something I need more than ever. Next semester will be my last before graduating, I'm sure it will be hard, however, my schedule isn't as nuts, so I feel like I will be able to handel both school and losing weight better. I am going to switch my weigh in days to Wednesdays. I just want to shake things up, it's been Thursdays for almost 2 years now and next semester  I have a really early class Thursdays and a late one on Wednesdays so, I'm not sure but I just feel like this will work out better for me.

Things will change  soon, I cannot wait. I set a very high goal for myself. I want to lose 7 pounds in the month I have off school. I know I can do it! That will bring my over-all loss to 114 pounds :) So excited!