Honestly,

I need to be totally honest here. Thing have not been ideal. I will just cut to the chase-
I haven't gain weight, I am still on track with my weight and eating healthy, however, I have not worked out since October 29 and I have been neglecting my food journal. I have been so overwhelmed by the amount of school work I have had, I have been putting this entire journey aside, and it makes me so angry. I do not want this any less then I did almost 2 years ago, probably more. Seeing myself reach that 100 pound goal showed me a lot about myself, I can succeed at anything. It has always been hard for me to balance things in my life, and it is being challenged now more than ever. School work, head teaching week coming up, starting a new job tomorrow, while still mainting a healthy, losing lifestyle. IT IS THE HARDEST THING I HAVE EVER HAD TO DO. I know deep down I can do it. I knew this semester would be hard, and I wouldn't lose as much every week as I am use too, with all the mental preparation in the world, it is still not okay with me. I feel like I am settling for this, when I know I could be doing so much better. I should still be losing consistently, writing in my food journal EVERYDAY and working out a minimum of 3 times a week. But when I have the busiest days ever, and I am completely exhausted by 7pm, the last thing I want to do is go to the gym. I am not complaining, I am just talking reality, a reality I know most people have to deal with. I have come to this conclusion. There is a reason why many people are overweight and unhealthy. Most of them are not lazy, they are just busy. It is so time consuming to prepare and pack an entire days worth of healthy food for the next day, compared to just stopping at the nearest fast food place. I am learning this now. However, for me, it is worth it. I know I will never go back to my old ways, it isn't an option. I am just seeing and understanding now why it is so hard for most busy people to lose weight.

Here are my goals moving forward to get myself completely back on track:
Write in my food journal EVERYDAY, no exceptions.
Go for at least a walk, or do my Pilates 3 times a week (if Im too tired or busy to go to the gym)
When I start my new job, never buy food at the mall, pack food for my entire shift.
Continue my healthy eating, even though the holidays are coming up.

I know I can do this, I know I can get fully back on track regardless of my insane schedule. School is over in a month, then I will really start losing to my full potential again, I know it.